I want to be a kid again

Its been awhile..guess my enthusiasm to write was lost for awhile.Plus there really wasnt much time to write with the monthly test and all.This spot has become my second room.

Anyway,I just watched some pictures of meals my mum's friend,Aunty Muna,cooked for her children.She said that its as a 'kenangan',so that she can look at the pictures when she grows old and her children are all grown up.Since im not a parent,the pictures gave me an opposite effect.I suddenly feel sad thinking that i'm all grown up now and sooner or later i'd have my own life and my own family.Okay,that's waaaay ahead but still,i feel the sadness already.Even right now,without me realizing it i've partially 'move out' from my parents house,since high school(i went to boarding school)! Right now i'm studying in penang so i spent most of my time here.In a few years time i'll graduate and who knows i'll get married right after that.I miss the times when i was kid..the feeling of going-bck-home-after-school..having dinner with my parents..my parents sending me to school every morning..my dad bringing us to the video store to rent movies..quarelling with my siblings and shouting at each other and then being scold by my parents..spending each day in ramadhan at home with the whole family...just the thought of it all makes me teary eyed.Now we rarely have the whole family at home since all of us are studying in different places and have different time of holidays except big ones of course.Me in penang,farah in perak,harith in kelantan and nurul in klang.Mak ayah you guys have been such great parents and i loved every minute of my childhood.What you gave us were more than enough.You guys have nothing to regret.I love both of you more than words can describe.okay enough reiminiscing.Sorry for writing such an emotional entry.heh.Blame the hormones!

Pathetic Hours

Im feeling kinda left behind right now.cause all my friends have started their studies but im still at home with nothin to do.right now they must be crackin their head with assignments while im at home fb-ing and watching korean dramas.sob sob,i feel useless;(oh 6 july!is there any ways i cn fast forward the time?time sure crawls when you're waiting..hmm..go away you miserable-ness!the pathetic thing is eventhough i feel miserable and unproductive i did NOTHIN about it and i dont know why.You know the feeling where you're just too lazy to do anything even if you want to especially when you're at home.no kiddin.and that is the reason why i chose to go to boarding school and bear my homesickness for 5 years!hehe.im such a cry baby kan?First child syndroms lahh..eh,wait a minute.isnt it the last child whose supposed to be the baby?oh well..who cares.

p/s:i feel brighter after writing my heart out.

Last day on earth

Im alone in my mum's office.just nw i studied biology fr A levels(its the closest book i cn get fr pre medic) in the library.since im a big fan of bio,i enjoyed IT!it feels good to make my brain work after almost half a year sleeping.pdn mke ko otak!now WORK!*evil laugh.i hve a question.if today is the last day for you on earth,what do you want to do?(spiritual things doesnt count).after thinkg for a while..i think i'd go on a hot air ballon around kl!cuz i've always wnted to go on one.actually i'd prefer goin on one in europe but i hve only one day,mne sempat nak gi europe!haha.it'd be nicer if it wuz at night(i dunno if anyone has done this.lol)cuz the sky would all be kinda glittery wif the stars and the city lights.i cn imagine the cool breeze during night time.haha.wadda heck am i blabbering about!geez.guess im just filling my too-much-free-time;]

p/s:im kinda sad cuz my bestie nadia had gone to n9 matriculation this morning.im gonna miss her loads!tnx fr the touching speech babe.lav ya!